You told me that I was the only one

You told me that I was the only one for you.

You tell me that you weren't seeing anyone else.

You promised me that you would be mine forever.

You made me believe you..

You make me fall for you more.

But then you make me hate you..

You played me this entire time.

You had my heart and you broke it.

You were seeing someone else behind my back.

You lied when you told me that I was the only one.

You said that being with me was a mistake.

Then you leave me for her.

I want to hate you for what you did to me.

But I can't do it.

I still love you, Jessica Jung.




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I see you with her walking around school acting so sweet to each other like how we used to be. She whispers something into your ear and brings a smile to your face. You hug her like how you used to hug me. I felt like a shadow looking at you from the dark. You don't see me anymore.


You ignore me now.


Why? So.. 2 years together meant nothing to you? We've been together for 2 years as a couple and 8 years as BFF. It all never mattered to you, am I correct?


You look at me and see me looking helpless but you don't care. You look away and I walk away feeling lifeless.


What have you done to me? What happen to the old me? What happened to the bubbly Tiffany Hwang?



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Everyone was worried about me after I attempted to suicide by slitting my own wrists.


You were shocked when you heard that I tried to kill myself.


You came to the hospital the day after I was found in the bathroom with blood flowing from my wound.


But you didn't come alone. You brought her.


Did you want me to suffer more? Is that it? Then good job. You succeed in doing that.


"What were you thinking Tiffany?" You asked in a demanding tone.


I couldn't look at you.


I didn't want you to see me cry.


I looked down the entire time.


"Answer me." Your voice was mixed with anger and worry.


I want to laugh because you sounded like you care about me for once.


"Leave me alone." I said coldly, shocking you and our friends.


They never heard me talk to you like this before.


You still didn't leave and I grew mad.


"Just leave me, Jessica! Stop making me feel like this! Stop making me listen to you! Stop making me feel like this! Stop making me smell that perfume of yours! Stop making me want to taste your lips! And stop making me see you! Stop making me fall for you!" I yelled at you while closing my eyes. I couldn't take it anymore. "Ugh!!, god dammit!!!" I held my head and screamed. I couldn't control myself from bursting out at you.


Please just leave, Jessi. Let me go.. stop giving me false hope that someday, you'll come back to me. Please just stop acting like you care when you don't.. just stop.. I can't take it anymore..



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After a couple of months later, I never did move on but I was beginning to.


I moved out a couple of months ago after meeting 'her.' She wasn't you but she was the one who managed to bring my smile back. I felt ashamed that I couldn't love her because I still love you. She doesn't know anything about you or us.


"Fany, I love you.." My girlfriend tells me again after we had sex.


"I know."


I could see the frown on her face.


She doesn't ask me why I never say those words back to her.


"I'm sorry.." I whisper but she hushed my with her lips.



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You told me that I was the only one for you.You tell me that you weren't seeing anyone else.You promised me that you would be mine forever.You made me believe you..You make me fall for you more.But then you make me hate you..You played me this entire time.You had my heart and you broke it.You were seeing someone else behind my back.You lied when you told me that I was the only one.You said that being with me was a mistake.Then you leave me for her.I want to hate you for what you did to me.But I can't do it.I still love you, Jessica Jung.**I see you with her walking around school acting so sweet to each other like how we used to be. She whispers something into your ear and it brings a smile to your face. You hug her like how you used to hug me. I felt like a shadow looking at you from the dark. You don't see me anymore.You ignore me now.Why? So. .. 2 years together meant nothing to you? We've been together for 2 years as a couple and 8 years as BFF. It all never they supposedly mattered to you, am I correct?You look at me and see me looking helpless but you don't care. You look away and I walk away feeling lifeless.What have you done to me? What happen to the old me? What happened to the bubbly Tiffany Hwang?**Everyone was worried about me after I attempted to suicide by slitting my own wrists.You were shocked when you heard that I tried to kill myself.You came to the hospital the day after I was found in the bathroom with blood flowing from my wound.But you didn't come alone. You brought her.Did you want me to suffer more? Is that it? Then good job. You succeed in doing that."What were you thinking Tiffany?" You asked in a demanding tone.I couldn't look at you.I didn't want you to see me cry.I looked down the entire time."Answer me." Your voice was mixed with anger and worry.I want to laugh because you sounded like you care about me for once."Leave me alone." I said coldly, shocking you and our friends.They never heard me talk to you like this before.You still didn't leave and I grew mad."Just leave me, Jessica! Stop making me feel like this! Stop making me listen to you! Stop making me feel like this! Stop making me smell that perfume of yours! Stop making me want to taste your lips! And stop making me see you! Stop making me fall for you! " I yelled at you while closing my eyes. I couldn't take it anymore. "Ugh, god dammit!!!!!" I held my head and screamed. I couldn't control myself from bursting out at you.Please just leave, Jessi. Let me go. stop giving me false hope that someday, you'll come back to me. Please just stop acting like you care when you don't ... ... just stop. .. I can't take it anymore ... "**After a couple of months later, I never did move on but I was beginning to.I moved out a couple of months ago after meeting ' her. ' She wasn't you but she was the one who managed to bring my smile back. I felt ashamed that I couldn't love her because I still love you. She doesn't know anything about you or us."Fany, I love you.". My girlfriend tell me again after we had sex."I know."I could see the frown on her face.She doesn't ask me why I never say those words back to her."I'm sorry ..." I whisper but she hushed her with my lips.**